Marriage 2

A few thoughts I wrote for myself yesterday:
- Van's reactions in ep1 justified (mostly)
- Varie as person, wife, mother
- if V+H's expectations at end of series mirrored "Into the Light"
- V's control and experience in his domestic and diplomatic political fronts
- Fanelia's image before and after the war

And the last topic led me to think about an interesting point--in ep6 when Millerna met Allen et al. at Crusade's landing, she said she had visited Fanelia as a child while Folken was there. But why was Millerna (and presumably Aston) in Fanelia?

Since the timeline according to Escaflowne Compendium is
Millerna, Van, Hitomi born -15
Goau died -12
Folken disappears -10
Marlene goes to Freid -6
then it should have been at least 10 years ago.

Two possibilities: (1) Aston goes to pay respects for Goau's passing; or (2) They visit for another reason, most likely after Goau's death. But in Millerna's recollection, Van and Folken were playing on the castle grounds, so the remembrance of the scene was generally happy. And if Aston had visited for Goau's funeral, then he would have mentioned it to Van in their conversations and probably would not have tested Van and Escaflowne for their performance in the coliseum.

Even if it wasn't for Goau, travel on Gaea hardly seems comparable to our standards, so the trip should likely be for business. But the business that compelled Aston to bring his family along should also be personal enough to include the youngest princess. A potential marriage alliance, perhaps.

A closer look at their ages collaborates with the possibility:
Folken 25
Eries, Allen, Dryden 21
Millerna, Van 15

Marlene's age was never mentioned, but it should be close to Folken's. Considering Millerna's match with Dryden and Marlene's marriage to Freid, Aston should have been calculating for a suitable match either within Asturia to continue the throne line or with a royal household outside to strengthen diplomatic alliances.

If Aston did consider Folken and Fanelia, and decided on Freid instead, then it could have been its larger territory, the Duke was already in power (as opposed to Folken yet a king), or a number of other factors. But it is an interesting thought that if different choices were made, Folken and Marlene could have been together. (And then, would Marlene and Allen still be together?)

Wings 2

I'm getting closer to actual writing progress, finally (after 4 months! I can't believe it's been so long. Where did all that time go?).

As I mentioned before, I tend to get great ideas right before I fall asleep, and then become torn between getting out of bed immediately to write it down or relying on my horrible memory and that invariably turns into "oh shit I had a really great idea yesterday but I can't remember what it is aggh~".

Anyway, yesterday night I thought up a good scene for ch6's end. Exciting. It'll be similar to ch4's end, except, well...you'll see :D I'm still deciding how dangerous I'd like to make it--spark or no spark between our antitheses of Romeo and Juliet. There are justifications for both possibilities, although my inclination is to go with my usual amusement based on Van's embarrassment and close calls. It's just much more fun that way.


I've been thinking about offering my extra Esca filmbooks as rewards for the Esca music project or as prizes for a little game within DS chs. I can't decide if it's my most brilliant idea or retardedly lame. Perhaps it depends on what the question is.


This picture (v) always shocks and confuses me. I'm always thinking: Why are they naked? Isn't Esca supposed to a teen series? And why isn't Van molting everywhere? It's confounding D:

Does my inner hopeless realist show through when I consider Van too gentlemanly to do anything like this inappropriate embrace within current confines of their relationship? (Oh man, I could write an entire essay on my views of V+H doujinshi I linked to the other day--part of me goes "I can't stop staring at the beautiful art" and the other part goes "no, no, Van, tell me it's not true. Noooo".) Or maybe it's actually because I'm too much an idealist to consider it in character with Van's dismal performance in ep19.

Nevertheless, the picture has inspired numerous fanfiction renditions of glorious wings in hugs and beds. And that's why I've vowed (yes, vowed!) there's none of that in DS. Wings are precious things, not meant for requests and displays. Wings mean more than dreams and flying. Wings should carry their own meanings of "deeper than the sky".

And let's stop there. It'll be so much better within its ch than here, I promise.

Esca Music

This week while I'm organizing music for a request by Algelic I realized that I have all of the Escaflowne soundtracks except for the Yubiwa single and the Jeture audio drama.

Although the Yoko Kanno Project is fantastic, especially its efforts in lyrics transcription, one of my dream Esca projects is to list each track with the corresponding episode number. I think it'll enhance the emotional nuance of the particular scene when we listen to the music alone. But even with repeat viewings of the series, some of these tracks are hard to pinpoint. Perhaps I'll ask for reader assistance in the project when I post ch6.

Favorite tracks: First Vision (movie), Romance (OST1), Eyes (OST1). And of course, Into the Light (OST3), DS's theme song ;3

Curiously, on all three OST covers, Hitomi's eyes are purple.

Hitomi

Previously I had believed in putting pieces of myself within Hitomi in DS. And I think that's why I enjoyed writing Van more, partly perhaps I hesitate to bare certain things for public viewing, and partly because Van had his real voice. But as Hitomi's development will be even more critical than Van's, since she had moved further away from that point 10 years earlier, and as I must know what she thinks of events in ch4-6, it's time to write her real voice.

Let's establish "the facts" first:
Hitomi Kanzaki
25 years old, 12/9, 165cm
University of Toyko veterinary division
4 years junior veterinarian in partnership
lives at home with parents in Kamakura
boyfriend: Sousuke Yamamoto

Since anime/manga creators frequently use astrology signs and blood type as pointers in their characters, here's Wiki's Sagittarius entry:
Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a dynamic, clever, quick witted, intellectual, ethical, humorous, generous, open-hearted, compassionate, and energetic character, but one which is also prone to pridefulness, impulsiveness, impatience, impracticality, and blind optimism. Sagittarians are said to like traveling, getting to the heart of the matter, freedom, laws and meanings, and the general "feel" of things. They do not like off the wall theories, being tied down domestically, being constrained, cooling their heels, and being bothered with details.

And then:
How does 10 years change her to make her more normal?
Look past her ambiguity in her relationship with Sousuke for real feelings.
Memories vs. perception of Van's changes vs. Van's perception of her changes.
What does Hitomi want? What is she afraid of?

In ep26, right before Hitomi sees an image of Van, what was she thinking?

Doujinshi 4

The Love&Peace website/blog by the Japanese doujinshi artist Tajima Minato has relocated due to foreigners using her work without permission. That made me very sad, and also made me think about my own posts of doujinshi images here. Although my intention is to promote their work, it's still using their work without permission. I'm not sure what my answer is yet, since for the most part I've only posted coverpages.

But some of their restrictions are unreasonably severe--one circle asks for readers to not download any images at all and delete ones they already have. On the technical side, there's no real way to restrict the user from saving images, since the images have already been downloaded when the page loaded, and the act of saving it into a folder different from temporary internet files is merely on the browser side. Even if the page disables right-clicking, there are ways to get around it. (And it also makes page navigation a hindrance, grr.) On the human nature side, people like to collect beautiful things.

And really, there's no good prevention of fraud and theft on the web. A lot of utilities and programs are actually designed for the downloader in mind, and prevent other people from seeing the real download. There is a Chinese saying "Boundaries higher by a feet, Lawlessness higher by a yard". I believe that we have to take good preparation to protect ourselves, and then trust the rest.

As for Love&Peace, I'm ambivalent. It's true that websites shouldn't scan and publish her doujinshi, but then, it's so difficult for us out of Japan to get our hands on her work that I can't help but cherish websites like Herya. (warning: explicit art.)

Is there a middle ground? I'm not sure.

Her new book that I'd love to get to read:

Goau

I'd like to incorporate Gaou and Varie as part of the storyline puzzle, but working with Goau has been more difficult than Varie. Perhaps partly it's because of the lack of father figures in Esca: Goau dies young, Balgus dies in ep2, Aston is more a king than a family presence, Dryden has no respect for Meiden, Leon left his family behind, and Hitomi's father was hardly mentioned--all except Freid.

Although Goau and Varie's deaths have more impact on Van's upbringing and motivations than Merle losing her entire family, in Van's memories, we only see Varie weeping at Goau's deathbed and his gravestone--never any interaction between father and son. Folken and Balgus took Goau's place in teaching and playing with Van since he was 3. So it's difficult to say what Van remember of Goau or expect him to be.

But despite all this, the most significant pressure from Goau is actually his lack of presence. As tantamount as Van's royal position and his Draconian heritage is being an orphan with all the expectancy carried over from the absent Varie and Goau. So even if I do not carry him over to DS, it's important to answer questions about Goau in order to understand Van. Two main issues: who was Goau, and how does his life and death impact Van?

I think of Goau as an older version of Van, had Van been more well adjusted. He was obviously a person with great distinction and inspiration--he was revered enough for someone like Balgus to follow into battles, generous enough to allow Balgus a training leave, and respected enough for Balgus to rush back to Fanelia in loyalty. His legacy prompted Balgus to take over Van's training and life for 10 years.

Yet he was more than leadership to his men, he was of emotions. By the time he met Varie, he was already 30, so he must have been rejecting other potential matches until he fell in love immediately with Varie at the lake. His love completely disregarded all caution, logic, and any other voices of conventional wisdom. He was a man of immediate action and reaction--and Van, at the very least in this respect, turned out to be just like his father. (Though, I must say, Goau was more charming. Sorry, Van.)

But the question remains: how did he die? There were a few clues, but none absolutely telling in its clarity: (1) It must have been a private matter--if it was death from battle or political trouble, Fanelia must have been in an uproar, and Van and Balgus would have vowed vengeance. But instead his death was lightly carried over, with only the leadership of the crown laid heavily on Folken's shoulders. (2) He died at the age of 48, hardly old, as Balgus was 70 at the start of Esca. (3) When Balgus rushed back, he had said "I was too late"--so the manner of Goau's death must have been relatively long, at least enough for Balgus to hear the news from a messenger or rumors and then transverse back from wherever he was training. (4) In opposition to #3, Goau's death must have been relatively sudden, as there is no memory of a bedridden Goau, nor did he look sick at all on his deathbed.

So many diseases and ways to die to still choose from. An acute illness, perhaps, or a severe accident. I'm undecided whether I should make it terribly shocking or romantic.

Making plans for a modified remake of this scene :3a

Mistakes

Ch6 will have to be rewritten.

Although Leal as the narrator gives an interesting perspective on Van, beyond that, there's nothing else to gain. It's wrong to allow more than Van and Hitomi as narrators, at this point. The experience of the events would be better told by Van, so we can once more look into his feelings without the usual distance he requires. Besides, I'm sure the readers will enjoy the political matters more if Van is giving the running dialogue ;3

I really value Jossi and other readers' input on here and as comments directly on ff. They always remind me the importance of a "story". DS isn't just an exercise in writing, it's a medium for readers to experience V+H's feelings.

Ironically, I seem to be busier without a job than with a job. I need to start scheduling writing time again.

Tsubasa no Kami has in-depth information about the Esca movie. And I had mentioned in my first posts that she hosts the only known map of Gaea. A total help for me :D This is from her program gallery page:

Character Profile

The most common mistake I see on ff is treating character profile as a list of physical markings. In addition to smearing the writing into lower class with simplified descriptions of a tall and brown haired man, authors are missing out on the most vital and powerful aspect of fiction: characterization.

There must be overwhelming background evidence to tell how characters will act in a certain situation. (Not all presented to the readers, of course.) And then it's the author's craft to connect the dots to make the experience pleasurable by the confirmation or surprise.

Of course, physical descriptions are important to bringing the characters alive in imaginations. But even in our first impressions with a stranger, there are numerous details we consciously and intuitively receive. Is he in good shape? How clean and stylish are her clothes? Does she wear flashy jewelry with flip-flops? Is he hunching to appear less noticeable? Does she hold her coffee cup with her little finger out or cradle it in both hands? Doe she look elegant but destroy the picture by saying insensible things? All of these are physical things, but they give so much more character information than sky blue eyes.

The best part to me in the film Stranger than Fiction was the part when Harold Crick says his favorite word is "integer." I had loled, because it's a word that completely defines his personality and behaviors.

As an exercise today I wrote the Esca characters' words. They're not their favorite, really, but words that I think exemplify them. So here's the list of their Esca-timeline words, though I've still to define (and keep secret from you, mwhaha) their DS words. And let me know if I've hit or missed the mark!

Van - trust
Hitomi - hope
Merle - Van
Allen - companionship
Millerna - love
Dryden - power
Aston - country
Eries - propriety
Chid - filial duty
Celena - emptiness

As for doing complete character profiles, I must admit I haven't finished them yet either. I think at this point I'd better concentrate on the next ch, rather than filling out the list to its entirety. But I do consider many of the following points as I work through scenes, and here's a partial list. For in-depth strategies and examples, pick up the book The Plot Thickens.

outward appearance. posture.
mode of dress. fabrics. expense. style. colors.
words. phrases. sentence to live by.
favorite colors, animals, foods, smells, places. reading material. music. art. decoration style.
family situation and relationship
history. jobs. education. occupation.
outlook on life. future plans.
personality. quirks.
distinguishing characteristic.
likes and dislikes.
recreation. hobbies. vacations.
circle of friends. types of enemies. past lovers.
perception vs. reality

One of my favorite pictures of Van is him in ending credits. It seems to say so many different things. And why is it? It's not his excuse of a shirt, or his hair, or his long lashes. The mystery comes from his closed eyes, that highlight on the bridge of his nose and his lips, his self-hug. Is it expectation, acceptance, waiting, or loneliess? Only Van knows.

Deadline

My new goal for DS is to finish ch6 by end of February. I've been avoiding definite deadlines because writing is for fun, not work, but I think it's gotten to the point that I need to get off my butt and let stress motivate me to higher performance. Readers need new chs, and I need to start writing again.

Still, my plans for the latter part of DS have been more exciting than ever. The last chs of V+H's story will be roomfuls of effervescent bubbles ;D I rub hands in anticipation just thinking about it. It's been really hard to restrain myself from writing those scenes out already, even though I know those will change by the time I get there in the storytelling.

Now off to continue my consideration of Fanelia's budget for airships.

Lack of Updates

Had a few more ideas about the last few chs of DS. The events surrounding their romance is going to be awesome. V+H will be true to character down to the last bits.

Which, of course, is totally useless for anything I can publish for ch6 on ff.net ; ; In my only defense, I can only say that when pressed with looming thunder overhead, I tend to become an ostrich and bury my sight as far underground as it would go.

But seriously, I've been mired in fixing my computer and thinking really hard about the last two years to write interview responses. I'm contemplating a job making cappuccinos, so I can at least have an income while I look for something more career-while.

To celebrate my 100th post on DS, I opened a random thoughts blog, Jomiel Says. It's just for fun and giggles.